His Name is Faithful and True!

I have really put off sharing this new blog. . .mostly out of embarrassment. . .not really wanting to publicize my spiritual shortcomings. But clearly that is pride trying to intervene, and by sharing I hope to uproot that ugly thing! Those I have shared this story with already have told me how much they needed to hear it, and how much it blessed them, so here it is:

Last week my husband and I were facing a dire financial crisis on Thursday that as the day went on and his efforts to "fix" it failed, looked bleaker and bleaker. Now, as a person of faith, and an intercessor for our church, I KNEW what to do. . . BUT, what I did was the exact opposite! I focused on the crisis, and allowed myself to become overwhelmed and I laid in bed and cried and fretted. . . ALL DAY! What a mighty warrior I was! What a faith giant! hmph! I went through so much in my head that day that I gave myself a headache and a stomach ache! My nerves were completely shot!

Needless to say, at the end of the day, despite my huge lack of faith, GOD CAME THROUGH!! He is Jehovah Jireh, our PROVIDER! That is His COVENANT Name (one of them), and we are in a COVENANT relationship with Him! He is FAITHFUL even when we are faithless!!

2 Timothy 2:13 (Amplified Bible)

If we are faithless [do not believe and are untrue to Him], He remains true (faithful to His Word and His righteous character), for He cannot deny Himself.

So, that night, after exhausting myself with worry, I slept really soundly. The next morning, with the weight of the financial burden lifted, I went to the kitchen to make breakfast and as I opened the refrigerator door to get the eggs out I was whistling. Suudenly He spoke in my spirit so strongly, "Having a good day daughter?" I smiled, "Yes, I am Lord! Whew! Yesterday was a bad one wasn't it?" He answered, "Yes, it was for you wasn't it?" I stood still, I knew something was coming. . . "Andi, was I not your Provider yesterday as much as I am today?" OUCH!! Then He continued, "Isn't faith the SUBSTANCE of things HOPED for and the EVIDENCE of things not YET seen? (Hebrews 11:1)" At that point I breathed out and could not seem to breathe back in again, the heaviness of that statement hit me so hard! "Where was your faith in Me daughter? Why did you fret? Am I not your Father? Have I not always been faithful? Have I EVER let you down?" At that point all I could do was stand there with the refrigerator door open and cry!! He has NEVER let me down! Even in the bleakest of times He has ALWAYS come through for me! He has proven His faithfulness to me time and time again! Yet here I was looking at the situation instead of the ANSWER. . . . HE is the ANSWER. . . . and allowing it to break me down to the point of not being able to get out of bed!! "I am so sorry Lord." That was all I could say. And at that moment I felt such a warmth and amazing Love surround me. It was OK. I learned, it was over, and my Daddy was holding me in His arms and loving me like no one else can! He is FAITHFUL and TRUE!! Trust Him in whatever it is that you are facing today!